Take it as i comes...

So, a friend of mine asked me to start blogging. So thinking--what on earth would i possibly write about when i always get writer's block and stare at a blank white ms word document till 4 am when i need a 10 page paper by 8 am... what could i possibly blog about? and moreover, who the hell would want to read about my life...? hmm after some thinking, i decided to do it for myself...just a place where i could be freestyle.. type the way i love.. no grammar ..no fixed sentences.... no rules.... just random phrases and thoughts.. as they come...the way my mind works... so here goes.. my first blogging attempt.. this one's for you.. ir... and since you've been wanting me to do this for a while.. i decided to stem it off of one of your blogs that titles, "questioning loyalties"... ;-) 'the rest of the world is now awakening by the true perception of their world. People have now begun to question everything around them...' i believe that we have always been questioning things around us. this is not something that has just begun...i guess.. people are more aware now that they do question the traditions and the daily acts that we do like robots so blindly..without question.. but i feel we've always done that... It's what we do best, what we did as an infant while crawling, what has been done by our explorers throughout history and what we do everyday, not just when our curiosity's nose rises, but because we need reasons for why we do things. mother nature has made us as such...we need to come up with a good enough justificaton as to why we do what we do. the true perception of the world? that's in the eyes of the beholder.. ain't it? --to each is own.. questioning loyalties.. what is cheating? what's not..? the kings of a time before us had their queens in their castles and their harems to please them, the queens themselves, i'm sure had servants to cater to their own needs. this was widely accepted. it wasn't a hidden taboo unspoken practice.. the great writers of their time spoke of it widely.. everybody knew that everyone does it... everyone was okay with it, until the world took a step backwards and realized sleeping around was making us sick, then we turned back to having one partner to be safe and avoid diseases...now we say we're going back and questioning our traditions.... life is a cycle...! on the other hand,...which traditions.. it's hard to say.. we've had many.. that's what makes us different... everyone thinks differently.. our experiences shape us...what the romanticits fought for during mary shelley's time was quite a step out of the box, don't u think?... they differed and defied the convention around them...as such did the surrealists... so have we truly just begun to question? questioning loyalties is not something that the world has just awoken to, it's something that is in our inherent nature... put a monkey in front of a mirror and watch what it does.. .curiosity soars... exploring is what we've always done whether it be for a place we'd like to stay in or a person we'd like to be with... eventually you just want to be in the place you like best...in the arms of someone you love the most...perhaps even die in them... .. that's just how we were made.... at an age like this, it's hard to talk about marriage... can't even picture it..with all the yrs of schooling ahead of me... i'm so young and may think i never want to get married.. but.. because there is no permanence in life.. this may not be how i will always feel... i may think differently at 30, perhaps 35. i may be so sure of my feelings right now and that i won't change... but i was so sure of my feelings when i had said yes too... if nothing in life is permanent, certainly the feelings i have today can't be expected to be something i'd feel a few years from now... life is all about growing, exploring, and evolving... ain't it...? i can't say i'd want to be single forever... i may want to get out of this fast forward mode that i'm in right now and just settle down...! stop, and breathe pari... engender what i have and what's around me... perhaps in the mountains of switzerland... may be u'll be there too... who know's... ;-) i love life... it's the best movie i've ever seen...! can't wait to see what happens next!