Saturday, August 26, 2006

Invincible...

Alrite, all you loyal Eagle's fans--I can't believe all the shows for Invincible were sold out in South Jersey too! I didn't get to see it till 10:15pm! It was well worth the wait though! It's the biggest football movie since Jerry Maguire! So what did I learn? I learned that you need to get laid in order to win!

Seriously, he starts playing better after he gets the girl...

It was the women in the movie who were so supportive of their men's dreams and held them through their weakest moments. They helped their men find the passion that first drove them into their fields. Goooo Women... Wooohooo...! (Either that, or it was the sex... j/k) :c)~

Nah seriously, the balance between the football plays and the relationships were done well. There's a certain level of focus that needs to be there in both realms-- career and love; focusing on just one made him falter; there always needs to be a good balance between both for a sucessful life. This reminds me a lot of the relationship between Cinderella Man and his wife! Gawd, they have such a beautiful, pristine, relationship! I look up to that so much and crave for that level of understanding, comfort, and security in my life--just knowing that someone will always be there no matter what you know? That feeling is out of this world!! Makes one feel "Invincible!" Can any of you truly say that you have one person who will support you no matter what? In any rut that you fall in and still be there by your side, holding your hand? My moma will probably smack me first if I screwup and I'm sure eventually I'll get some degree of support, but it's a different kind of understanding I crave for.... that feeling of having someone you can say to,... you're there nah?... and u know the answer already, but it's just that "knowing" feeling that he/she gives you, that "love" and "assurance" that everything in life will turn out okay in the end... it always does...


...but this is probably all mambo jumbo to the superficial society that we live in today.... i think it has affected me too! i was watching the 70s show yesterday and some therapist was asking the couple to think about things that excite them about marriage, so i posed the same question to Daesoon and Franky,.. and Daesoon said, "--it's the feeling of waking up next to someone everyday who loves and cares about you so much and you just know that this person will always be there for you...." and after he said that i looked at him for a moment... and totally burst out laughing like a hyena....!! LOL... i was like,..? comon !!! GET REAL! but he was being totally serious.... i felt kinda bad for laughing at him.. but i can't even remember the last time i heard a guy talk like that... it's been like 4 yrs...!! i can't imagine any guy saying that and carrying it out till i'm 85 with no teeth...! people just don't think like that anymore... i've lost my whole faith in that... i know it's a wonderful feeling... and when you're high and in love.. you improve your performance skills...and it makes you do 2400 things in one day and u feel totally invincible on cloud 11... but u can achieve the same feeling of being high by having sex about 56 times a day to produce the same amount of hormones chemically... hmm...that could be quite exhausting but fun to try on a nothing-to-do saturday in bed...


Happy Saturday! ;-)



More News: I just got a pedicure! Oh my god! It felt soooo goood! :-) I love my feet being massaged! They do it sooo well! No where near in comparison to the Pedicure that Vish treated me for in Cape Cod of course, but it was pretty decent! Also, it was kinda nice to see guys taking care of their feet too! My toes are a luscious red now and sooo shiny!!! --I could eat off of them! :c)~

Friday, August 25, 2006

Plan B...

http://online.wsj.com/article_email/SB115642397853444416-lMyQjAxMDE2NTI2NDQyMjQzWj.html

Did you know...

...that I love sleeping in Black-Tees? :c)~

Shake and Bake baby...!!!

U know, Will Farrell (aka--Phil Reston) is funny but honestly, I liked John Reiley a lot better--I really think that acting-wise Reiley is great! (especially in the last scene with the trophy; he was real good! Gary Cole looked like he could be Farrell's son! He was so in shape and young and healthy looking! :-) Okay where's that French restaurant when you need it? Trying to get away from that American diet, we love so much. And of course we were gonna stop at AppleBee's before the movie for dinner. Ayi ya yai... At least, I didn't keep saying, "I should be studying, I should be studying" (Oooh, remember Kristin's orgasm interpretation of this? -Gawd I love VM!) (This blog will only make sense if you read the one below.) I'm surprised that I didn't feel guilty at all that I was out and all my school friends were home diving into their textbooks... Yes, yes, i know... So overall Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby was entertaining; some parts dragged though!

By the way, how funny is it if that the terrorist try to make weapons of mass destruction ushing biological warfare and start spreading anthrax, only to learn that they're egetting beaten by good ole' house garlic! :c)~ hehehhehe...

i find it soo amusing...

so if you want to live to be 123, adopt the japanes diet,.. they don't have any history of alzheimer's disease and such a low risk of cardiovascular disease. Our brain needs this thing called DHA in omega-3 that we used to get when we were sea creatures and ever since we've been on land, apparently evolution hasn't figured out a way to make this stuff ourselves and our brain needs it for food and you can only get it from fish. If you don't like the nasty fish taste in your mouth from fish oil capsules, then try this thing called Coromega, they come in these lil ketchup-like packets and taste like orange pudding! You'll want more, but one a day is good. :-) Or just have fish and wine everyday and you'll be fine... ! :) Throw in some fresh garlic, chop it a lil bit, put some olive oil and a lil salt and pepper and perfect you got yourself a great antibiotic, one that no bacteria has been able to build up resistance towards. When nothing else works, garlic will...! Make sure you carry breathmints and perfume--garlic does get excreted from the body through the pores in our skin and through the lungs, as does alcohol--u dwi dodgers-attempting to pass the breathalizer test!! so anyways, Garlic Rocks! But be careful if you want to get kissed tonight... :-*

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Sweet water...

This one is courtesy of Stevie D:
(I don't know you yet, but you made me want to blog again...) :-)
Thanks for the comment.

"Man, you gotta taste this Sea Water"
Drink the sea water

Great site:
http://blog.gupsup.com/


It's so AWESOME that people are still talking about Vagina Monologues!!!
I'd be at the oddest of all places and people will come up and commend me saying that it was an unforgettable night that changed their life...!
~It really does feels good to do something great for the community! :-)

SO GO ON, GO AHEAD AND DO SOMETHING NICE FOR SOMEONE TODAY, GO! Dil ko Achcha lage ga.... :c)~
...and keep smiling, cause sum 1 luvs u!

Oh just 1 more thing, --Don't forget to drink your coffee for the day! :-)

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Why are lobsters red?

I don't know, but they taste sooo damn gooood! :-) Thanks Noly! I loved the Lobsterita Margarita! So I quadrupled the number of calories that I supposedly tried to burn at the gym today. No worries, right? --There's always gastric bypass!

Seriously though, I feel so sorry for those people who underwent banding of the stomach. What a huge life adjustment to make with a tiny little stomach. Just imagine, they couldn't even fit the Caesar salad that comes with your meal in the beginning. They'd have to keep excusing themselves to go to the restroom to make room for the next course! Gawd! What a life! No wonder they need to go through such intense psycho therapy! Wouldn't it just be easier if we ate like the French rather than eating like it's our last meal?
Or just had sex every night, either works! :c)~

They drink more, smoke more, and still have a longer life expectancy!
Smaller portions People!!! It's okay,...American Restaurants are just oblivious to the Starving Children in Somalia!


Other Egocentric American Medical News:

--Researchers found that drinking coffee seriously reduces the risk of developing diabetes, heart disease, and cirrhosis of the liver. Numerous reasons were cited, including coffee's significant antioxidant content, according to the 8/15/06 New York Times.
(Yea! Drugs are Good too!)

--CQ HealthBeat reported on 8/16/06 that over 25% of all children born each year in the US are born via Caesarean section, 38% more than in 1997.
(I guess our celebrities started a trend and women just don't want to deal with the whole process anymore. Just drug em' and get the fish out!) Yet, if they didn't past at all, it would still come out! Personally, I'd recommend water birth to my patients!

--The State Legislatures in Vermont and California both voted down two assisted-suicide bills modeled on Oregon's unique law. Supporters in Vermont say that they will try again next year, according to the 8/14/06 American Medical News.
(I think we just generally like to kill in our society)


On the World News Front:

The AOA is proud to report that the Japan Osteopathic Federation (JOF) has pledged $5,000 to support the consultation on the development of the WHO Guidelines for basic training and safety in osteopathy. The Osteopathic International Alliance (OIA) has been coordinating responses and comments on the draft Guidelines, which has been reviewed by national organizations around the world. The AOA has taken charge of expediting the consultation to finalize the guidelines, which we anticipate will happen early next year. To date, we have received contributions from the JOF, the World Osteopathic Health Organization (WOHO), and the Federazione Sindacale Italiana Osteopati (FeSIOs), an Italian osteopathic association.

:-)

Strange thought of the day: Could you imagine a mad scientist in a laboratory growing a fetus into a full sized grown man underwater? Would it be possible to maintain the gills we first get as a fetus in a womb and develop them into our adulthood lives? Let's not use our lungs! --Can we develop a mechanism in our body to suck out the oxygen from water so that we don't drown or die from CHF and so we can swim with the dolphins? :)

Ignoring the moral and ethical dilemma behind it, (which to tell you the truth, I don't think even exists anymore--cause to each is own, but we are just responsible for our actions!), but seriously mad scientist guy would love to grow a human in isolation and doing it underwater would be trying to make it evolve backwards! This human would have lived his whole life underwater and we'd be watching him through the glass. What kind of socialization skills would he develop? If we put a female in the aquarium with him, how would they interact--without any influence from the outside world? Hmmmm..... Evolution--a million years of conspiracy!

Sunday, August 20, 2006

What is Friendship?

Isn't it a shame that when you've been friends with someone for so long and have tried to be there for that person through the good times and the bad ones and have gone through so much together... and then all of a sudden he/she is embarrased to let anyone know that he/she is associating with you?

ouch...!


u know who you are... yes it's you...! what the hec, yaar?

Friday, August 11, 2006

good-bye!

i'm gonna stop blogging! i blogged for ten days and i haven't gotten a single comment! that totally sucks! and Karan, since when does septa go to toronto? -especially not from newark penn station! i guess i suck at writing--no one wants to read the crap i write-- so i don't know why i was wasting my time! goodbye!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

when the time comes...

it looked like the tumors were trying to break out of his body my neighbor said.
metastasized to every organ within an invisible rib cage
lumps just started bursting out of his shriveled, dry, chemo-radiated skin
his eyes bulged out of their sockets right before he took his last breath.


when they had found out, it was too late
as it often is...

he had been suffering for months now.
it had got his tongue
took his sight
and his dignity...

he said he would quit when the time is right.
he died before that.

it killed him
that slender white drag that we think, we look so cool holding between our first and middle
when we stand there in the blistering cold, letting the gray fumes swivel and warm us within, never thinking about it burning holes through our alveolar sacs..

it makes us feel-- oh so good…
the whole process of finding a stash, flipping it open, pulling out the lucky one, a flick, a flick, and another flick--the flames crisply burning the tobacco as we bring it near the end tip while our hand is cuffed so gently protecting the entity that is about to bring us our prime pleasure of the day.

Oh how pretty it looks as it incinerates into the tar and slowly engulfs the whiteness with its brightness.

How proud we are to stand with our friends, holding these beauties, whiffing away sophisticated conversations, watching everyone walk by while the sun takes its course over the horizon.

Darkness slowly creeps in but we never realize that the very forbidden act that makes us feel oh so good and rich is penetrating toxins into our mind and body.
we won’t go jump out in front of a car because our life is so dear and precious to us, yet, why do we slowly poison our souls to a painful death leaving our loved ones to grieve?

yes, that white slender stalk that is just so refreshing that it makes our mouths water at our desks till we get up and step out of our office to light one up.

yes, that white thing that pushes lunch to midday, keeps my waist trim, my drinks enjoyable, and my life just a little bit more pleasant...

that oh so good--taboo candy, that we need before we put our feet on the ground in the morning…

oh that little white thing--no, it can’t hurt me...
i can stop whenever I want, he used to say.


it took his life before he could stop.

he was 56.

my neighbor weeps for her brother now.

i'm feelin' a lil...

:-/

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Are you feeling tired?

Listen to Specialist 'N' Tru-Skool - Repazent. It really pumps me up for class in the morning! ;-)

La Esperanza (Hope)

Alrite, please draft all the engineers to Alaska so I can get some decent priced gas in my tank! That and don't forget Alaska has only three neurosurgeons. So if you do end up practicing there, you'll make let's see...1... 2......6...7.. digit.... uhhh....a whole lot of money! Either that or invest in eBay, it's all up up up! (Also, the pneumonic to remember the technique used to treat a Left on Left sacral somatic dysfunction,...umm nevermind!)

So rather than spending my evening in the library like a good girl. I spend most of my evening just relaxing outside on the benches listening to birds chirping and discussing life with Megan and Kevin (no, not the Canadian.) Kevin, make sure you communicate with her about what it is that's bothering you. Megan, there is no such thing as a nice guy! Once we get passed that, we can get somewhere. Anyway, the Socrates panel soon broke out when my friend Jay came to visit me and took me on a little escapade to La Esperanza. I cannot believe a place like this existed in South Jersey; I can't believe I've never been to it! I felt like I was in Mexico. I know I've never been there, but if I had a picture in my head of Mexico, that's what it would look like. Everything from the Mexican hats on the ceiling to the gigantic 3 foot hot sauce bottles to the salt and pepper in jose cuervo bottles to the indian goddess like figure on the spanish calendar to the guacamole in the iron bowls gave this place such a homely yet you still feel like you're dining out kinda look. The food was super yummy too of course! -especially after my touch of lime! ;-) It's soo funny, Jay knows me well enough now and automatically asks for lime and tells me to do "my thing" with a smile... :-) No, seriously the food is really good! So all my South Jersey peeps, definitely go check it out! Quantity is really good too,--I have food for tomorrow now! Yea! Tonight, I'm going to eat at Nani's and tie Aman Rakhee. I usually fast until I tie it on him, it's almost 8 am now,..hmmm...let's see 12 hours without giving Pari food might make me a little cranky... but for now, I best be going to my 9 hour day of class. Oh joy!

A special shout out to my special poopeyhead who gets to be my age for 3 months...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEHA!!!!!!!! :-)

I LOVE YOU GIRL!!!!!

(and oh yea, Gagan--VM doesn't count-- I wished her first, so there!! Nanee nanee booo--booo! Pppppppptttthhhhhhhhhh..........) :c)~


Happy Rakhee to Everyone!

To all the Bhaiyaas and anyone who wants to buy me something, --perfumes and watches are on sale at Macy's! ;-) (Yea, okay...money will work just fine Aman! --I love you Bro!)

Mmmmmmmmmmmmuuuaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

But, I must question...

"I am human, therefore nothing human can be alien to me."
~Maya Angelou
I feel what you feel and I understand it, believe me I do...
Why should you feel hurt if your spouse found something intriguing in someonelse and decided to go explore that thought and sleeps with someone else? Why should you feel hurt if he/she did something that made him/her happy? Why should you let that element that makes your spouse happy--why should you let that factor be a cause of your pain? Why should that hurt?


You don't know...

...but it just does.

it just does...

it hurts.


It's nothing that you have control over. It's supposed to hurt. Why would one want to go through training his/her mind so that he/she does not get hurt by such an act--when as human beings as well as other animals our innate instinct is to feel emotions? How do dolphins save humans from sharks and bears take care of little girls and primates nurse our babies, how do we show compassion for a wounded dog or an old woman hurt on the street, how do we do this if we stopped feeling? We can't pick which emotions to feel--either we feel or we don't. Once you train yourself to not let it hurt, --you'll stop feeling everything. Why would anyone want to become a cold-hearted stone with nothing to give or offer to anyone because he/she is now empty inside...


But to not let it hurt would mean to make myself stop feeling...
To stop feeling would mean to make myself not human...

Role Reversal...

Pari: Have a good day at work, Aman!
Aman: Thanks. You have a good day at school too, Sis!

Am I in another dimension? A Parallel Universe?


No, it's just a typical Tuesday!

8:00AM-9:00AM
OMM
Utility of Radiographic Studies in OMM
Dr. Mason

9:00AM-10:00AM
Clinical Nutrition
Energy and Protein
Nutrition III, Alcohol, Fiber

10:00AM-12:00PM
Pharmacology
Drug Absorption
and Distribution

12:00PM-1:00PM
Lunch/UAAO Meeting

1:00PM-3:00PM
HPDP
Natural History of Disease-Part I

3:00PM-5:00PM
OMM Clinical Skills
OMM Lab

Monday, August 07, 2006

Things that make me smile... :-)

Elena and Neil just called me from atop Signature Room at the 95th to say hi as they were remembering me and thinking about how much I would love it!!! :-) Amazing, how little thoughts like that make you feel so good and lucky to have such terrific and caring people in your life! Thanks guys! I love you both!!! <3

How tall will my kid be?

Try it out for yourselves, see if it's true... --it really works!


For a Male: ((Mother's height in centimeters + 13) + (Father's height in centimeters) ) /2

For a Female: ((Father's height in centimeters - 13) + (Mother's height in centimeters) ) /2


*Ahem... for all of you who haven't had math since highschool and have been using your handy dandy gizmos for conversions: There are 2.54 cm in an inch and 12 inches in a foot. Have fun!

I love the Ocean and its unpredictable nature...

So-sorry I didn't write yesterday--I was busy trying surfing for the first time in my life at Brigantine Beach by Atlantic City! ;-) It was Radical!!! Daesoon pushed me right into this big wave and off I went, screaming away-- yes a lot of screaming! In the waves, I could see beautiful creatures swimming sideways, some as big as 3 feet! It was amazing! From football to frisbee to whiffle ball and tag-- we loved getting dirty in the sand. I just discovered Daesoon's talent beyond medicine and playing the piano, he's also an architectural engineer-- he build a moat around our fort and completely devised a drainage system to guide giant waves away from our belongings. I held strong for hours! Props to Daesoon. I also happen to fall in his drainage system--but that's another story. Sounds of change from the slots, lights, boardwalk traffic, cute stores, rickshaws, lots of food, games, drinking, playing with chips (I have to think of it as chips so I don't get sad about all the money I lost) and good friends is what made this an excellent weekend in AC!

Oh yea,... ahem ahem... I learned that gambling is bad! - You will lose your money! Don't do it if you're broke!! :c)~

Also-this weekend, I learned that Canadians are not that bad once you get to know them. ;-)Their French is just as sweet as what I've heard in Paris. Also, if you're thinking of franchising in Vancouver, it'd be a novel idea to introduce some Mexican restaurants there--this is stemming from Kevin's question, "So, what's the difference between an Enchilada and a Fajita?" ;-) Also I learned that lawyers are as clueless as us doctors when we get thrown into the real world upon graduation. So be easy on us, nah? We may not know all the drugs or all the laws, but we know how to get that information from really cool computer programs on hot looking gizmos. ;-) j/k... But hey, the lawyers still make a lot more money than us--no fair! Or rather they just steal our money after we get sued! Hmmm... where's the justice in the world? Any defense medical malpractice lawyers out there? ;-)

So on the long drive to school this morning from up North, I hear on the radio about how this girl got fired by her boss over a text message. So convenient nah? You don't need to face the person or deal with him/her or even answer his/her phone call after that. Great way to break up with someone as well, huh? I could see employer's using it for their staff as well as their secretaries: "I shall no longer require your services...Thank you and Good Luck!" Hehehehe... :-) So this girl really didn't know if the text message was a joke or not and found it to be a very unprofessional and cowardly act! I see her point, but the employer's defense was that his staff is of the "youth group" and text messaging is just the way of life for them and that's the best way that he can reach out to his employees. Hmmm... has a new sub-generation truly emerged? The whole debate on the radio actually reminded me of a personal incident that had occurred during the email generation we had a while ago, (which has kind of died down for me now, judging from the 67 flagged mails I have in my box waiting to be responded to since May) --"Pari, I thought and thought and decided that this is just not working out, after 5 years I have realized that we are incompatible and I do not wish to waste another day of my life, for this reason, I will not be able to come to your house for your birthday party this weekend! -I wish you well in life!" Yuck! I remember feeling so disgusted! I remember being more upset at how he brokeup with me over an email, deciding that he can make a decision that affects both of our lives all by himself, than the actual breakup! But was that just how things were done in our time? Was I totally wrong in condemning such an act? Should I think that that was the proper way to do things because we were in the midst of the email generation? Had not people in the past broken up over answering machines? Has getting stock quotes, news, music videos, and grandma's number texted directly to our phones--truly made us the transitioning gap evolving from an email to an SMS generation?

Saturday, August 05, 2006

M & M Art

it's pretty creative, don't you think...? ~i might have to try it...!


CNN News:

A convicted killer who sold postcard-size paintings he created with dye from M&Ms and brushes fashioned from his hair broke prison rules by running an unauthorized business out of his cell, officials said.

While Donny Johnson hasn't profited from his art -- all the money is being used to start a program for children of inmates -- prison officials said he was wrongfully engaged in a business without the warden's permission.

Johnson, 46, has been locked up since 1980 for second-degree murder in a drug-related killing. In 1989, he was convicted of assaulting one guard and slashing the throat of another. He's now serving life without parole in the most secure unit at Pelican Bay State Prison in Crescent City, about 10 miles south of the Oregon border...

http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/08/04/prison.art.ap/index.html

Friday, August 04, 2006

What I learned this morning...

"According to Nutritionists, if you consume 2+ drinks a day, you are an alcoholic". (gulp...!) :-/

"Due to sperm damage, children of smokers are more prone to mutations and childhood cancers".

Smoking really does do nasty things to you, please don't do it! If you do smoke, you should ween off of it and quit! Really! -it's really disgusting and scary what it does to your body! Yuck! Please Don't Do It To Yourself! Take care of your Body! You only get One!!! That's it--Just One Chance! Don't #&!% Up Your Life!

What are you good at?

AC was fun, the waves were so-so, the prime-rib buffet is super yummy at Taj. Double Attack Black Jack and the feeling you get when you make the dealer bust on his third card with a 6, and win a 15 to 1 play is freaking Awesome! :-) I knew i'd fall asleep in Nutrition the next day, so 5 of us decided to skip nutrition and get manicures and pedicures--wisest decision i've made! :-) No offense to white people, but through my experience, they just can't do manual labor type stuff without being a bitch and they really suck at it. So if you need to take crud out from under your nails or if you need a massage, make sure you go to someone from a minority group. The manager actually had to replace the lady doing my nails cause of poor service, not that I complained, but it was quite evident. She got replaced by Yogi's lady who's--get this, part Hawaiian, part Cherokee Indian, part African American, and part Pacific Islander mixed with some Irish blood--talk about minority! Gawd, she made me feel sooo gooooooood! Hey, i needed my foot massage after the heel and hole incident last week! I stopped limping finally, so i'm getting better--that or I'm just drowning myself with alcohol at all these socials every night. Nah they're kinda fun, Luau was really cute, got much compliments on my sarong outfit, (I LOVE dressing-up!) after-party at stone-grill was ssooo happening! Acha, going back.. yea so...we're all good at something, aren't we? I'm still trying to find my talent--damn you singers! But for certain specialties, our ethnic genes are just made for. Take for example my Asian dentist, she has butterfly hands, she's so delicate, I almost enjoy getting my teeth cleaned! I know I'm weird! But black people have that extra spring muscle in their ankles to make them jump higher and be better at basketball. Mexican boys are superfast on bicycles cause of their psoas muscles! Us--Punjus, -well, we're just better drinkers! ;-)

Thursday, August 03, 2006

To Live Life As You Like It...

It is better to eat steak with friends than eat broccoli alone. Build Good and Strong Intimate Relationships. Surround yourself with people who truly love you and then you shall lead a healthy and happy lifestyle.

Media and Medicine




so that's what they do... ;-)

Take it as i comes...

So, a friend of mine asked me to start blogging. So thinking--what on earth would i possibly write about when i always get writer's block and stare at a blank white ms word document till 4 am when i need a 10 page paper by 8 am... what could i possibly blog about? and moreover, who the hell would want to read about my life...? hmm after some thinking, i decided to do it for myself...just a place where i could be freestyle.. type the way i love.. no grammar ..no fixed sentences.... no rules.... just random phrases and thoughts.. as they come...the way my mind works... so here goes.. my first blogging attempt.. this one's for you.. ir... and since you've been wanting me to do this for a while.. i decided to stem it off of one of your blogs that titles, "questioning loyalties"... ;-) 'the rest of the world is now awakening by the true perception of their world. People have now begun to question everything around them...' i believe that we have always been questioning things around us. this is not something that has just begun...i guess.. people are more aware now that they do question the traditions and the daily acts that we do like robots so blindly..without question.. but i feel we've always done that... It's what we do best, what we did as an infant while crawling, what has been done by our explorers throughout history and what we do everyday, not just when our curiosity's nose rises, but because we need reasons for why we do things. mother nature has made us as such...we need to come up with a good enough justificaton as to why we do what we do. the true perception of the world? that's in the eyes of the beholder.. ain't it? --to each is own.. questioning loyalties.. what is cheating? what's not..? the kings of a time before us had their queens in their castles and their harems to please them, the queens themselves, i'm sure had servants to cater to their own needs. this was widely accepted. it wasn't a hidden taboo unspoken practice.. the great writers of their time spoke of it widely.. everybody knew that everyone does it... everyone was okay with it, until the world took a step backwards and realized sleeping around was making us sick, then we turned back to having one partner to be safe and avoid diseases...now we say we're going back and questioning our traditions.... life is a cycle...! on the other hand,...which traditions.. it's hard to say.. we've had many.. that's what makes us different... everyone thinks differently.. our experiences shape us...what the romanticits fought for during mary shelley's time was quite a step out of the box, don't u think?... they differed and defied the convention around them...as such did the surrealists... so have we truly just begun to question? questioning loyalties is not something that the world has just awoken to, it's something that is in our inherent nature... put a monkey in front of a mirror and watch what it does.. .curiosity soars... exploring is what we've always done whether it be for a place we'd like to stay in or a person we'd like to be with... eventually you just want to be in the place you like best...in the arms of someone you love the most...perhaps even die in them... .. that's just how we were made.... at an age like this, it's hard to talk about marriage... can't even picture it..with all the yrs of schooling ahead of me... i'm so young and may think i never want to get married.. but.. because there is no permanence in life.. this may not be how i will always feel... i may think differently at 30, perhaps 35. i may be so sure of my feelings right now and that i won't change... but i was so sure of my feelings when i had said yes too... if nothing in life is permanent, certainly the feelings i have today can't be expected to be something i'd feel a few years from now... life is all about growing, exploring, and evolving... ain't it...? i can't say i'd want to be single forever... i may want to get out of this fast forward mode that i'm in right now and just settle down...! stop, and breathe pari... engender what i have and what's around me... perhaps in the mountains of switzerland... may be u'll be there too... who know's... ;-) i love life... it's the best movie i've ever seen...! can't wait to see what happens next!