Pain ---> Anger + Hatred

What do you do when the one that causes you so much pain is the only one that can make it go away? Coming near causes grief and staying far is torment. Clutching the pain, I often fall to the floor. Sometimes it gets so unbearable that when I try to breathe, I feel myself trying to come up and gasp a breath of air in the cold, vast ocean, only to keep getting sucked back in. Crying to sleep seldom works; the tears dry out and all you're left with is this sharp knife-like pain stabbing over and over again into your wet wound. What happened to the happy days? The days filled with thoughtless laughter, glint-filled gazes, and mischievous fun? Now, I lay here, my innocence gone, my trust stolen, and my heart broken... TLOML, starry eyes I have no longer but now just empty darkness... Without a soul, without a purpose, not a drop of love but just a whole lot of pain churning into a venom that poisons me with anger and despair...